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Friday, September 25, 2009 - 11:39 PM
random grumblings
feel extremely tired today, even though i had nt done much work today... 1st day of big aunt always makes me feel gloomy.

had a nightmare yesterday night, one so serious that i found myself crying when i woke up in the middle of the night....

the thing is, the nightmare is about sth stupid, sth that anyone else in the entire universe won't link it up with horrible, terrifying nightmares.


it was about a ...............frog >.<

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Stupid, right? i told shazhu and he laughed his head off. hahaha. i feel really stupid. dreaming abt such a thing and allowing it to develop into a horrible dream.

the thing is, i think the nightmare was really horrible. but, in order not to let the entire world laugh at me, i wont say it in details.

the effect goes like this, when you say it like a story, its totally hilariously insane, BUT if you are the one dreaming about it, you will think its horrible. well, at least, to me, it was totally.....=X

ok, i shall spend the rest of my before-bed time to do some research.



Monday, September 21, 2009 - 1:56 PM
很煩耶！
曬衣服，掃地板，拖地板，洗廁所，上超市買菜。。。。

我盡然為了瑣碎的家務事忙了一整個早上！！好不容易現在有得休息。。。>.< 連日來我都忙得沒時間掃地，地上已「墊」了一層灰塵。沒辦法，只要是活在這宇宙上，家裏有灰塵是無可避免的。 可憐的我，除了要被畢業論文折騰以外，還要抽出時間來忙家務事。 沒辦法，誰叫我家的人大多數的時間都不在家，雖然本小姐我很忙，但最常在家的人仍然還是我！=( 我家雙親每天一大早出門工作，要到下午才回家。由於他們每天只有大約五個小時的睡眠，工作又辛苦，我當然是盡量讓他們在家裏休息。至於我哥呢，似乎只有一般睡覺的時間他才會在家，其他時候都不見人影。他的一生，似乎是「致力」于表現得比我忙，所以不需要做家務！

不要誤會哦，我不是說我哥不好，只是每次他都是比我忙，無論我多忙他還是比我忙，根本無法（或不想）與我分擔家務事。他縂是把他生活的時間表排得滿滿的，沒有把「家務」的標題列進去。在我中學一、二年的時候，他要準備O LEVELS，所以比我忙。在我中學三、四年的時候，他要準備A LEVELS，所以比我忙。在我高中時，他在服兵役（NS），所以大多時間不在家。在我高中畢業后打工時，他開始了大學生涯，積極參與課外活動，所以比我忙。在我上大學之后幾年，他在準備畢業論文，所以比我忙。現在，我已大四了，忙著準備畢業論文，但因爲我只修兩門課，所以大部分時間在家... ... 我哥則在大學畢業后在外頭打兩份工！還kena reservice。。。你說，他是不是永遠都比我忙？？？

我不是在說他的壞話啦！只是，我自己也有很忙的時候，但還是盡我所能幫我媽，我不想她累坏身子。。。

不知從何時開始，我已經成爲了我家的「女傭」。。。大概是中學吧！但是那是生活還不忙，比起現在~哈，簡直是天淵之別！所以那時才有時間做家務啊。回想一下，記得在自己準備O LEVELS 和 A LEVELS 的時候，我還在做家務耶！儅大家都在利用寶貴的時間埋頭苦讀、啃書的時候，我也在做家務！何時有停過啊！T____T

有時候，我盡染還自我憐憫！哎呀，我的「女僕」命幾時才會停止。就算沒停，也希望pause一下下，好讓我喘口氣。。。

對不起各位，本人只想借此機會，發發牢騷。。。



Thursday, September 17, 2009 - 10:45 AM
FANCL TRIP!
Kudos to the acnes on my face. All of you have successfully brought down the level of my confidence to almost zero! :(

Thanks to jiaxin's recommandation, went to Fancl at jurong point yesterday to see if there is anything to save my poor face from the acnes army. Actually, i had wanted to try Fancl products in the past, but whenever i walked past the shop front, i really didnt dare to enter the shop...cos the products on display are so delicate and small in size, I am afraid that they will cost a bomb...and if i happened to walk in, its most likely that i walk out carrying the Fancl shopping bag....but anyway, during 362 break yesterday, was chatting with jiaxin and sujun about facial products and jiaxin recommanded Fancl cos she just went to the shop with lingling and had a free beauty consultation even when she didnt purchase any product in the end. haha. so i decided to give it a try....

aft lesson, shazhu went to the Fancl shop with me...haha maybe i dont really dare to enter alone...the shop only has 2 sales person and one of them promptly came up to me smiling and asked me if she could help. She recommanded a toner for acnes treatment for me, as I am not using any toner at all, and she thinks that it may be the cause of the inflammation on my skin, resulting in pateches of red on my cheeks.( she says mine looks like rashes! >.<)

anyway i told her that i really dont noe if i have oily skin or sensitive skin or whatsoever, thus its difficult for my to purchase skin products, and i wonder if she could check for me* crossing my fingers that she will test my skin for me for free! hiahia....* and she gladly provided me a free beauty consultation! :) she asked me to sit in front of a tv screen, and she used a small round sensor to test my skin. and my skin was shown on the tv screen when the sensor touched it! my skin was like zoomed in a hundred times!! until i can see the pores and fine skin hair super clearly!! then she showed me a chart which has 2 skin pictures-the skin with alot of triangular shapes is a healthy skin with lots of moisture.

Initially she tested the skin on my chin, because its not exposed to any UV rays so that we could know if my orignal skin texture was good. and guess what??? my original texture of skin is healthy and hydrated!!! :))))) with lots of triangular shapes! i was so happy! but then came in the question- why is it that i stil have so many pimples growing non-stop?

then she put the sensor on the area where my pimples are growing... v red and oily, its obvious that the area was like a hotspot. and my nose! lots of blackheads arranging in a regular pattern! haha, v cute! >.< (but actually the blackheads cannot be seen with the naked eye. as i have mentioned, the sensor zoomed into my skin a 100 times!)

after i told her my skin care procedure, she told me that its actually essential to apply toner after washing your face, then after 2 to 3 minutes, apply moisturiser, then after 2 to 3 minutes again, apply pimple cream or gel. and that the 3 products can overlapped each other!! its so amazing! i didnt know that the products can overlap each other, i always apply them separately. i reckon this is the reason why some parts of my skin are hydrated, while some parts are not hydrated enough, causing oil to be emitted instead! which caused pimples to grow!

according to the salesperson/beauty consultant, our skin must be moisturised and hydrated enough so that it will be healthy and that oil would not be emitted due to the lack of moisture. and that one should avoid using more than one similar products at the same time( eg 2 kinds of toner or 2 kinds of moisturiser), or the skin will get confused. and apart from skin products, one's lifestyle plays an important part too.

healthy lifestyle includes:
eat lots of fruits and vegetables to replenish vitamin C for the skin.
drink 8 to 10 cups of water a day to keep your skin hydrated.
avoid sleeping late.
avoid eating oily or spicy food.
stress will cause your skin to become unhealthy too.

erh well, alot were what shazhu mentioned previously, and i didnt listen to him cos i thought there was something wrong with my hormones instead. :( i must say that i did not abide to the all the above points i guess, from now I will strive to follow strictly to the rules for the sake of my poor face.

well, so in the end i decided to buy the FANCL cleartune toner, since i didnt have a toner at home...its $28.50, not too cheap but yet stil affordable!...and shazhu paid for it for me! :))))) thank you!!

another thing that i must say: that salesperson's customer service is realli superb!! i could have just walked off without buying anything after the free beauty consultation, but she didnt even persuade me to buy anything from the shop! and she stil keep smiling at me and say even if i were to buy, i dont have to buy a series of the products( like cream, facial wash...), i can continue using the ones i already have at home! this is so different from what other saleperson/ beauty consultants would say to you. most of the others will try to persuade you to buy their items and and keep saying how good their products are, and make "false" promises that their product will give you the results that you are looking for.... those kind of "unscrupulous" customer service personels! i have encountered too many of them. or the others will just change their expressions and tone of speech immediately after you say " i will consider" instead of buying their products.

that Fancl saleperson's customer service is absolutely different! she didnt ask me to buy her product and just recommanded me the product which will suit my skin type. and a free beauty consultation for me even if I may not be buying anything from the shop. Her customer service is really ranked at No. 1 standard! all of the salepersons mentioned above should learn from her!! and after my purchase, she still held on to the carrier bag and smiled:

"Let me see you and Mr Ang to the door. This way please." and led us to the shop front before handing the bag to me with both hands!

OMG! did i suddenly entered Japan?? it was the first time i was treated like a VIP just after buying something from a shop at an ordinary shoppingmall!!! haha i was really WOWed and amazed by her... how great will it be if the rest of customer service persons were to learn from her... is it realli a japanese company culture or what... her service is realli giving me an indelible impression...

on the side note, i am using the toner for the second time already. i really hope that the new product and the new skincare procedure works for me( wash, tone, moisturise and treat pimples)... i m counting on you guys for the salvage of my skin!

Today's mood: Happy :)))




Tuesday, September 15, 2009 - 10:58 AM
AGING!!
Case ONE:

2 days ago, when shazhu and i went to comex 2009 to look at computer stuff, we walked past a citibank stall and a salesgirl keep pressing me to sign up for citibank credit cards... ...

salesgirl: excuse me, would you like to sign up for citibank credit card?*eager look*

Me: no, thank you. *waving to her politely*

salesgirl: or you have other credit cards already?

Me: no, no. I am still a student.*smiling*

salesgirl: *speechless*

and that salesgirl gave me a SURPRISE look. -_______-

why?? don't i look exactly like how a student should look like????


CASE TWO:

just yesterday, i went to the supermarket with mama to help her carry groceries, and on our way mama met her old neighbour. what a coincidence. she happened to have moved and live nearby too... ...

auntie: 哇，那是你的女儿huh? 我从来没有见过leh! *neither did i see her before*

mama: 是啊，是啊！*beaming away*

auntie: 长那么大了啊！长得很像你leh! 根本就是一个模样KARP出来的！哈哈，现在几岁了huh?

mama: 你猜啊，你猜！*smiling at me*

i was smiling at the auntie and kind of looking forward to her answer... its been some time since others guessed my age. i can stil recall that time when i was in J2, my neighbour thought that i was still in SEC 3, which made me smile all day! hahaha.....BUT THE AUNTIE SAID....

auntie: erh...你女儿二十四岁啊？

me: HUH? 那么老啊？？？*controlling myself not to strangle her*

mama: 哎哟，她才二十一岁啦！

auntie: 哈哈，sorry sorry 啊！auntie 老了，乱讲的啦！*still laughing away*

me: 不用紧，不用紧。。。*gave her a plastic smile*

24 years old! she thinks i am 24!!! when i m still at a youthful age of 21!!! i just turned adult! hello!! a few years ago i still didnt look like my age ok!!! just a few years can make such a difference?! i really couldnt bring myself to believe it!! arh, i was exasperated within for the rest of the day, feeling really gloomy.... then i reckoned, it must be my pimply face! recently, my face is having an outbreak AGAIN! even if the pimples that popped out previously haven't even finished healing. i was/am really quite sad. My pimply face is making me look old! i seriously think that healthy skin makes you look younger, when can i ever have a healthy complexion??? i have tried alot alot of brands, but none of them really works for me, and now i m trying a new acne facial wash, and its kind of drying my skin up....

do i realli need to visit a dermatologist? i was quite concerned with the amount of payment needed... as i am not financially sufficient....

yet, my skin is getting worse than before, the pimples have start to grow out of their usual areas, which means they are scarring the rest of my spotless face....

难道丑小鸭注定要当丑小鸭一辈子吗？？？



Friday, September 11, 2009 - 12:09 PM
how i wish...
How i wish, that semester hasnt start and its still the long three months holiday right now.

How i wish, that I can catch up with the others as alot of them are already planning their structure and content page of their FYP paper.

How i wish, that ah ma had told me earlier to change my FYP question so that I don't have to think of a new question when its already September.

How i wish, that I have the discipline to focus on my research and not waste my time at home when i don't have any classes.

How i wish, that it will stop raining so heavily(right now) cos its making me feelin more gloomy than ever.

How i wish, that I don't have to feel gloomy and spend this 5 minutes blogging away while I can use this time to do my research.

How i wish, that i will have enough time to finish reading all the research materials and come up with something constructive to say before i meet ah ma next tuesday for discussion.

How i wish, that logical thinking and new ideas will appear in thin air before me, so that I wont be sending my brain into a state of pandemonium with all those critical thinking.

How i wish, that i can start running and my ankle will stop giving me problems after that bad sprain 2months ago.

How i wish, that my face will stop having break-outs cos my skin problem is almost annihilating my confidence.

How i wish, that our busy schedules are just nightmares which we can wake up from, so that shazhu and I can still have the time to go hiking together and enjoy beautiful scenaries.

How i wish, that everyone else can take out some time to getogether and chill, chat like there is no tomorrow, like there is no FYP...

How i wish, that the blurry shadows will stop obscuring my view to look at my question in the clear.

How i wish, that i will be able to stop lying on my laurels and be able to motivate myself to go through this ordeal of my uni lfe.

How i wish... ...

"whatever will be, will be. The future's not ours to see... ..."