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Wednesday, June 24, 2009 - 5:05 PM
belated father's day
I shall say sorry in advance for whoever is reading my blog, because at the head of this entry i am going to complain about my dental appointment first.

alrite, straight to the point, this mornin i went for my first ever and last ever dental appointment at the polyclinic at marsiling. why? because i lost alot of BLOOD during the dental treatment! argh! tt 2 dentists! i was supposed to only do scaling and polishing for my teeth, and yet i have to lose so much blood and my gums hurt. well, not too much blood but quite a superfluous amount of blood for a scaling and polishing treatment. i mean, this kind of treatment isnt supposed to make u bleed!! even if you have to bleed, you only lose a teeny weeny bit of blood, like a drop or 2... BUT just nw after the treatment when i rinsed, it was a mouthful of bloody water!

Bloody hell! tt dentist! :((( and my gums hurt quite alot during the process...well she told me before she "operated" that "its going to be abit uncomfortable", but hey, this was NOT ABIT, it was VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. In fact, it hurt! well there is this sharp sharp thing that they use to scale your teeth( i am not into dental so pls don ask me what is that), but i think half the time she was scaling my gums instead of my teeth!! and they were like rushing for time( i know they were, because they have a lot of patients waiting for them), and not skillful and experienced enough, plus they were rushing for time, tt's why the sharp thing kept poking my gum. Initially, the tube which was supposed to suck the water was not even in place, and water kept splashing on my nose.... =( and then its that sharp sharp thing which kept poking my gum and made them bleed...argh! i hate that strong iron taste in my mouth, it made me abit giddy（ which i think was my imagination, cos i knew tt i had lost quite alot of blood...).

Hey! i wasnt there to pluck my tooth ok! i was not supposed to bleed! even after i had waited for my turn to make my payment( 38 bucks, wasnt cheap too), i stil could feel blood in my mouth. so aft that, i head for the nearest toilet and rinse my mouth. Bloody water again! though not as red as before, but it actually freaked me out a bit...as in, i am bleeding so much! it was so terrifyingly unexpected! i SWEAR that i will never ever go to that polyclinic for any dental treatment again! Never ever! i will rather go to a private clinic instead...alrite i think i wil return to the private clinice in amk which i made my braces 2 years ago...at least that clinic never make my bleed so much before! i have nv bleed so much in my entire process of making my braces! surprisingly...cos i didnt pluck any of my teeth...

alrite, i have complained enough...hmm feeling better too, LOL...

ok i shall wish my papa a belated Happy Father's Day! and well, i shld wish my godfather a Happy Father's Day too! i din get to call him on that day to wish him, fortunately i sent him a card..at least i hope that will make up for my personal call...

well we celebrated w papa only on monday, because pama( papa and mama) were not free on sunday night. we went to Dian Xiao Er to have lunch! and it was indeed a v delicious lunch! we ordered quite alot( bro ordered de, actually...he nw gt money can treat ma haha)...the most delicious dish is stil the Dan Gui Roast Duck! which is really super nice, with skin crispy on the outside and meat tender on the inside! yummy!! and we had some herbal soup, cod fish and salad prawns and broccoli w scallops...haha ya drooling now? too bad i didnt take the pictures of the food because we were all super hungry already! ( basically we ate at around 3.15pm)... and i MUST praise the white rice! it was the most superb staple food that i have eaten! haha funny that i wil recommand its white rice, but it was really delicious and smells v good..think its rice of a more superior quality that we normally eat at home..

some pictures from Dian Xiao Er...

This is Dian Xiao Er's menu... or manual Lol...

Papa and mama! =))))

Mama and bro! the light is a little too dim...

Papa and me!! X))) this pic is abit blurry though..my hand was shaking from all the hunger...

alrite, tt's all folks! time to do my research!



Wednesday, June 17, 2009 - 12:22 AM
unmotivated.
What was I doing for the past few days? nothing.

my brain seems to be in the shut-down mode or hibernating mode...it doesnt want to work and i feel so lazy to even use my brain...argh i hate this kind of feeling. the feeling of just wanting to slack and waste my youth and precious time away.

hmm i keep forgetting the jap words that i have just learnt and my progress for my jlpt 3 study was crawling super slowly like a tortoise. i wonder hw sha zhu have the wonder memory of running perhaps 100 gig per second to memorise so many new jap words and the ability to rmbr what his philo book wrote...

but well, at least i do rmbr to write a father's day card to my god-father. u see, my god-father and god-mother are actually my aunt and uncle. They took care of me when i was an infant because my parents didnt have the time to look after me. I remember i used to have short stays at their residence when i was young, during the holidays, and during that time they took care of me, brought me out to shop and eat and be a part of their family...hmm they often took me to church too..actually i didn't like to go to church at all and i didn't like the way they keep talking to me abt christianity, because i know that deep down inside me i dont believe in God.

well, i am a free thinker, to be exact, but my parents are buddhists, so naturally i believe more in buddhism than christianity, and i was hoping that my god-parents will at least respect my family's religion. So, religious faith turned out to be a one big gap between us, and over the years as i stopped visiting their home for short stays during the holz, we only get to meet each other like once or twice annually, like during CNY and christmas...and we dont talk alot, too. well, maybe i dont noe what to talk to them about...and my 2 cousins are not so amiable and they dont talk to me much too, basically they don't talk to me even if they see me, and thus i am always the one breaking the ice...so our relations are just so-so.

However, i am indeed grateful to them for their care and concern for me in the past, and I still show my gratitude to them during Father's Day and Mother's Day, even though our relations have estranged. Actually i can't believe that i stil call them "Daddy" and "Mummy" even though i cant feel any closeness to them anymore, let alone any fatherly or motherly love. Those words come out of my mouth with a tinge of uneasiness in me, whenever i call them, because i know that its some kind of a facade, and I can't help it, but yet i can't stop calling them that and suddenly changed to "uncle" and "auntie" cos i have been calling them "Daddy and Mummy" for as long as I can remember. THAT kind of feeling, is weird, yet helpless.

but, so far i can't think of a better solution than trying to improve our relations, thus for the past years when i only make a phone call to them to wish them a happy father's and mother's day, for this 2 years i have been sending them cards, within the cards i would write some messages showing my gratitude...hmm hopefully i can improve my relations with them and maybe they will change their attitude towards me too.( sometimes i feel that they are giving me a cold shoulder =( or am i too sensitive?) haha hmm all i hope for is that our relations wont go down the hill and become worse.

and i promise that when i have found a stable job with a stable income, i will treat them to dinner or lunch treats, as they had celebrated my bdays in the past, treating me like their own child.



Wednesday, June 10, 2009 - 11:24 PM
Book Fair, PC Fair and GSS!!
sale sale sale! everywhere is having sale! haha recently has been going out alot to look at books and sale! last week sha zhu and I went to the World Book Fair in suntac and Popular Book Fair at expo.

He was kind of disappointed at the World Book Fair becos it turned out that it had nothing much for us to buy, no academic books nor the newest book( i forgot the title！) that he was looking for..haha i got myself sth though, a 新华成语字典! hah and at a v cheap price too! @ 13.60 aft a 20% discount...:))

and we bought much much more at the popular book fair cos there happened to be alot more books which are useful to us than the world book fair. we bought a total of 6 books for only 70 sth bucks!( I forgot the exact price!) which means its only an average of 11 dollars per book! CHEAPPP! :)))

i bought a politics book regarding China and socialism, and 鲁迅's 狂人日记(全集）...hmm was wondering if i was wasting my money cos 鲁迅's works can be found online...but since i wont be carrying my laptop all the time whereever i go, so i might as well buy the book, 鲁迅 was a great writer anyway, so its not realli a waste of money...sha zhu bought philosophy books at an average of 11 plus bucks per book, which is realli a catch! cos philo books are usually v expensive....anway he is realli into politics and philo and his grad project has sth to do with it, hope the books will be of great help to him!

haha and we went to the John Little clearance sale just next to the popular book fair, and a i bought a total of 5 items for abt 58 bucks！what a grab! basically i bought 2 FOX　tops for onli 5 dollars each！

tml we will be heading down to PC fair to buy sha zhu's com stuff. but i doubt that i wil buy anything cos i m zero to IT-savvy and bro is usually the one buying com stuff for the both of us. haha but i will see if there is any shopping i can do at suntac tml!

Retail therapy is definitely a must for someone who has been brain-storming for her FYP for the past 2 weeks!



Friday, June 05, 2009 - 1:21 AM
Trouble's Brewing..
Damn tired.

Some data entry assignment is making my eyes fall off. so many words and digits and hundreds of entries. and its 10 bucks per hour.

Money is hard to earn. i prefer teaching tuition. hah.

and its taking up lots of time from me. i seriously need to practise what i preached, if not i will never ever start on my fyp...

And I haven't even think of my fyp question...if I don't start soon I will be dead meat! argh!



Wednesday, June 03, 2009 - 12:28 AM
Rihanna's Umbrella in Hokkien
This is hysterically-hilarious!! i laughed til i stomachache...lol
this is a singapore stageplay production btw... enjoy the video!