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Thursday, August 20, 2009 - 2:10 PM
SICK.
i am sick. AGAIN. i had a fever ytd evening, right after my runny nose and sore throat. :(

why do i have to be so fragile? i am so SICK of my body... it is so susceptible to illnesses. :(

haiz, maybe i should stop pushing all the blame to my body and start to put in more effort in taking care of it...afterall, as quoted by shazhu, you are the one who possess your body, thus you have the obligation to take care of it.

feeling tired and gloomy now. shazhu is coming to my house to deliver my lunch, well that is sth for me to be happy about. :))) haha, poor him, i think i am realli troublesome... he has to worry about so many things for me.. poor health, bad ankle...etc and i think he is going to fall sick too, if he doesnt stop burning late night oil.

secondly. i am getting SICK of FYP. i have to change my question, and i only got to know it just 2 days ago. T__T

ah ma really shld have told me last month when i met her, that my fyp topic is too much of a common question. shldnt have wasted my time, really. i could have found my new direction and come up with a question using last month's time of holiday. arghh...well i am not angry with her, i am just...disappointed. with her and with myself. fortunately, she suggested a new direction for me to do, now i have to think of a question which is DO-able. ARGH...why do we have to think of the question by ourselves?? almost everything has been done before and we have to think of new ideas and new angles to look at old problems by ourselves. this is just too difficult for me..i think, or maybe i am just not academically-trained enough to challenge this. :((

3rdly, xy took her flight at midnight ytd, and i think she should have reached Beijing by now. hope that she will be able to face all the obstacles and challenges over there... haha i think she can do it, if its me, i wil probably just collapse from all the stress and responsibilities.

argh. i feel tired and drowsy from the medicine. but i promise myself not to slp unless i do some research today. and maybe i should stop graumbling all these nonsense and start to do something constructive. alright, that's it! i have set my target:

by hook or by crook, i am going to come up with my fyp question by the end of next week!